waiting (healing)

wait for the good to come. aren’t i worthy? excuses that fill my head while laying restless at 3 AM. love in all its forms must be strengthened. career and creativity and all that is part of my purpose has to expand. but not yet. i must heal while in stagnancy. cannot move forward untilContinue reading “waiting (healing)”

Catholic Guilt

6.27.18 A former busybody, persistently too involved with Others. My selflessness, just a facade: am I appearing kind enough? Sincerity melting away in the pool I am floating in. The sun heats the top of head. It doesn’t gleam. It taunts. On a quest for wisdom from the moon. (It hides from me.) Whisperings amongContinue reading “Catholic Guilt”

Burden

stay quiet in fear you may actually be seen. shout harsh words, spitting into the air like punches may be thrown. still a scared, scarred little girl controlling her commanding attention now. thinking before speaking: aren’t I wise? an analytical rant, followed by an ignorant and privileged aside. canibesmallercanibesmallercani anywhere that will seize me upContinue reading “Burden”

Shadow

11.21.18 I’m in a mood, I say. But this underlying chaos rises too close every time I speak. I’m just tired, I think. Clouds of puffy smoke dance inside of me, leaning against the Exit. I spot my shadow. She is impatient. She is a warrior, ready for this stagnancy to pass. Slow and steady,Continue reading “Shadow”

sharing our energy

7.14.18 we pass on catty words — that’s how we make friends, see? my hate is similar to your hate. we sigh and breathe insults at those we love or even better: leave a gust of silence so still it leaves puckered red marks circling our throats. we have mouths that speak these heavy words,Continue reading “sharing our energy”

M.A. (A Stray)

My anxiety softly touches my hair in an attempt to soothe my worries. My anxiety says dark things, half-seriously, in an attempt to make things light. I see a stray, Daisy, and she yells upon sight. She comes close, and sees I am a flower, too. We walk on, led by the sunlight. My anxietyContinue reading “M.A. (A Stray)”